Many years ago when I first started working here a colleague would occasionally mark down "OTD Meeting" on his calendar. Eventually we found out that it meant "out the door". He would simply leave the premises and go run errands or do other non work related activities. He said these meetings were necessary for his mental health. His manager never questioned them and assumed they had to do with one of his projects.
I had an OTD meeting today from 12:45 to 2:00. I got my car's oil changed, got some cash from the bank, and picked up a lunch special from the local Chinese restaurant. I even managed to do about 5 Chemistry problems while waiting for the car. And I got all of them right.
So slowly I'm screwing my head back on today. I sometimes seem to lose it. I have to stay focused. I will do well in this course. I will have a wonderful time playing and making reeds this summer. I will go back to school full-time for 9 months and do well in all those courses too. I will figure out what to do with my career once the courses are over. And I *will* get good enough to reach my goal of playing in a local orchestra. That's really what my dream is about. Playing. In a big group. I don't need fame and prestige. I don't need to make money off it. I don't need solos. I just want to play with an ensemble. I want to get as good as I can considering the circumstances.
This musical fossils site is pretty cool. I find myself agreeing with everything and it's giving me nice ideas about how to practice. I've definitely been committing some of the mistakes he highlights. So I need to try to lose myself in the music more.