Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Still here

I got my yearly cold very early this year. It started on January 2nd and lasted 8 days. Today is the first day that I feel totally well again. Needless to say I didn't practice every day last week and am now trying to get back into shape. *sigh* My teacher was very nice about my having to cancel last week's lesson. She said I shouldn't feel down because of not being able to practice while sick. She said that even professionals have periods like that and all you do is just work yourself back up to it. No one is always "on". Everyone goes through rough spots. Well, she didn't say it in those words, but however she said it it calmed me down. It's so hard to stay patient. Losing all those days and falling behind hurts when you want to be playing so much better than you do. But she's right, all I can do is start moving forward again. Even if I did take a few steps back.

By the way, those high fingerings are making me feel like a complete newb! Could they have made them any harder???? Maybe we should play with our toes too. Sheesh.

It's a psychological struggle every day with these notes. I've never felt clumsier in my entire life! Part of me feels like I will NEVER be able to play these notes. It's especially hard to press two keys at once (see high E) with my twisted pinkies. I should take a picture of them for you. I was born with VERY twisted pinkies. This is not a huge problem on my right hand but it's very taxing on the left, given all the keys that that pinky is supposed to control. Maybe I should get them operated. Oh well, more on that later. I'm going to go play WoW now.


Darlene said...

hi Hilda, I am new to your blog, came in via oboeinsight. I've been playing oboe a long time, and the high notes are awkward for EVERYBODY. You just have to grit your teeth and do it over and over and over and over and over again--- it will get easier, I promise! And it might take a long time. I have enjoyed reading your blog; and I just want to cheer you on! You are so optimistic and determined; I really admire your spirit.

And it is good to take a break sometimes (whether it's forced or not)!

Hilda said...

Hi Darlene! Thanks for visiting. Glad you're enjoying it.

Thanks for the words of encouragement. It's good to know that I am not the only one struggling with this. Thanks also for alleviating a little bit of my guilt about missing practices last week. :-)

I'd love to hear more about you whenever you have the time. If you prefer you can email me at

Jennifer Grucza said...

Oh you play WoW? I'm afraid that's the reason I haven't been posting in the last couple of months - I'm addicted. I play on Gul'dan. :)

Hilda said...

Oh drat! I'm playing horde (undead warlock) on Duskwood. We found a bunch of our old Everquest friends on there.

Are you getting the expansion? I might start a priest or mage blood elf.

Haha, so good to know that someone else is into games!